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Thursday, August 30, 2007

12:51 AM

antonio puerta
a natural left-footer
an amazing midfielder
the hand of sevillas
one that will definitely be remember

1984-2007

2more days to jessica's birthday (:

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

1:33 AM

media and society.i so hope i can get at least a b or something.note is "so hope".somehow i felt that the paper was rather difficult.everyone was going about on how they would expect to do a supp paper in sept.owells just fingers crossed that i will be able to do well.i somehow feel pressured indeed.strange as i dont know why too.geeez.anyway at least my last paper is tomorrow.so that's something to shout about.though technically i am kinda like on vacation now.considering that the 2hardest subjects are over.as for essential graphics.damn i really hope ill do well even though i have not a clue on what to expect and to study.boy i so cant wait for tomorrow.school's out and it's sean's party.HAHAHA.shit everyone is going to get wasted.talk about fun fun fun.yay (: 3 more days to jessica's birthday!

excite me babyy

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

1:45 PM

golf.my new favourite sport.though tennis still reigns as number one but yea you get the picture.now i just question myself why havent i found this sport earlier.funny how i used to think that golf was an "old people" sport when i was much younger.but instead it is one that works out both your mind and your body.not to mention the fact that there is hardly ever any wind so basically your in like a so called "sauna" owells.i am looking for a nice place to have dinner at.but dammit i just cant seem to find any.blast.i need suggestions.anyway marketing went pretty fly today.though i think i lost 9marks altogether.on the hindsight that is not too bad right.9 marks out of 100?ok i am just trying to console myself.damn media and society tomorrow.talk about the subject of overkill.i feel doomed shit.4 more days to jessica's birthday (:

shoot me then turn me over and shoot me again

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Monday, August 27, 2007

12:56 PM

the thought of exams kicking in is just starting to make me all stressed yet highly depressed at the same time.somehow just the thought and the sight of my lecture notes and my textbooks now just make me bored.really.i think in order to make school more bearable for most of us exams should just simply be scrapped and we are just graded on coursework instead.besides not like we will ever need to able much theory based work once we step into the industry later.owells this clearly shows people how warped up society is basically.somehow i find it really ironic that singaporeans are really happy about the new policies implemented.ok if you know me i am sure you know why i think such.it is rather funny if you come to think about it in fact.however,kudos to the government on having such perfect timing for the speech though.without it being on that date i so wonder if our stock market would have taken a dip instead of that spectacular rise.owells.the wonders of having things nicely timed.how they can either save or jeopardize a situation.

cant wait for thursday somehow.it is going to be the last that we are going to be stepping into school this semester.it is going to be our last paper and lastly it is going to be the first day of our much deserved school holidays.talk about a whole lot of parties.in fact i somehow cant even remember when did i last have a good night out where everyone just got amazingly high and stuff.early this month i think?damn that was such a long time ago.i miss my girlfriends.havent seen them in ages but the plus point-dinner and a wild night out with them this friday to celebrate my birthday.talk about love.what the hell would i do without them.though it is a pity that vann's in malaysia that day.owells.5more days to my birthday (:

right here waiting for the exams to be over and the parties to start

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Thursday, August 23, 2007

9:01 AM

this week has been a rubbish week which has been made up of nothing apart frm lecture notes,textbooks and the laptop.yes the top three things that dominates my life as of now.apart from the simpsons with jac on tuesday i feel like i am just going to die due to brain information overload.i swear exams are the killer man.owells on the hindsight good thing though that school exams are kind of taking my mind off that of my drama exams which i am so not prepared for.anyway.i know i can do well in it somehow.craving desperately to play bridge with my good old classmates again.damn i miss them somehow.tim's gone.how sad no more bitching for sometime i guess.england lost.boooo ):

i wish life was like a story book, where i could one day write my life away

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, August 19, 2007

7:58 AM

alright my week compressed.it was stressful yet awesome.marketing presentation went well in fact.i think we did a much better job for marketing as compared to med soc and ironically we're not even graded for marketing.owells.i just hope that with that it will just help boost our team's marks to that of an a.anyway went for the bourne ultimatum.yes that is just what i would call a total kickass show.definite worth of a 5star rating.o o and i had a great offer too.heh.anyway yes jac i still feel bad about friday.caught the fireworks last night.at clarke quay.HAHAHA.isnt it just so awesome that you can catch the fireworks while your having your drinks and stuff?owells.went for mojitos night with my dad.its been awhile since i actually had a "laid back" kinda conversation with him.trust me it was good (:

Waking up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think
When I let it sink in
It's all over me
I'm lying here in the darkI 'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot
& all I know is
You've got to give me everything
Nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' in everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?
& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' in everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your love up for me
We can't escape the love
Give me everything that you have

& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' in everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

(Give you everything)
(Give you all of me)

one for every screwed emotion

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Thursday, August 16, 2007

7:41 AM

how the hell can i be so damn bloody stupid.why am i that blind to the various things around me.i just end up hurting myself time and time again.always trusting the wrong people hoping to find that happiness but always getting thrashed in the end.funny how i never ever learn from my mistakes.i wish i can just erase my past and start life anew everytime something crappy happens.it is just humiating when i come to think of it.ok i am sure there are so many other better things in life out there for me.with my loved ones and friends.who needs those people anyway.they can crash and burn for all i care.so much for me helping you when you were in need.what a sad ass liar.you should be ashamed of yourself.

CONGRATES PEARL (: (: (:

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Monday, August 13, 2007

7:37 AM

lost in that crazy state of euphoria.grinning from ear to ear.one call made that whole difference which finally changed my day from that of an average one to that of a totally bitching one.alright im just really happy that my wish came true and because of that i will meet many people whom i love really soon.met up with xijie again after what seemed to be a really long time then went on to study with mel which was productive for like 30mins?HAHAHAH.ok that just sounds so gay right now.

in that spur of a moment when your mind and body is conflicting with each other.telling you totally opposite things to do.what would you do?i wished i had the power to overcome such but sometimes i think i am just to weak to do or oppose anything.wouldnt it be so much nicer if the perfect state of life was pre-planned nicely for you.where shit does not happen and when you know that no life changing decisions are required.wouldnt it be nice if you knew what crap comes about next so you can be sure that you can alter and change your fate why before it actually happens.i know i wish for such.do you feel the same way too?

how far is heaven?

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Saturday, August 11, 2007

8:58 AM

this week was omfghellfun.ok krunk was good.we got high.met up with a whole bunch of people whom i have not seen for ages.finally danced with aster.lovely.went running into the guys toilet to pee til a drunk guy came in.went street asking for ciggs,dance dance and a whole lot more.one word-fun.sorry this is a delayed entry.

why do i feel so forced whenever i am around you.please tell me that you actually care and that this is all just but a lie.

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Friday, August 10, 2007

8:39 AM

questions start flowing through her mind as she wonders if this is for real.as she stares deep into his eyes she asks herself "is this a dream".had she finally found someone who would be willing to love her for who she is or to just treat her as a item.something which is just for show.he leans over the table and places his hand over hers,then whispering softly in her ear he said "trust me,im serious this time."she asks herself if she could be second time lucky.she had been hurt before in the past and now she just wants to be sure.she wants to be more than just the girl.she wants to actually feel the love.someone to hold her tight and not let her go.someone to catch her when she falls.he plants a kiss on her left cheek and slowly brushes her arm as he tries to reassure her yet again.but the thought of the things he did in the past just makes her doubt herself further.as she tries to put the things behind her.but memories start creeping in.she just wished that the good times would just take a stand still while the bad moments just slowly delete itself.staring into his eyes again.she took a long deep sigh.that familiar doe eyed sparkle and that boyish smile.she slowly decides to accept what she was in for yet with some fear in her heart.

looking o so spiffy (:

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

2:48 AM

alright mel is modeling tonight.how nice.though as much as i would love to go.i somehow have this sunken feeling for laziness within me.dammit why must sentosa be so dam bloody far.ok to go or not to go that is the question.though yes i have gotten the tickets already.alright the only reason on why im even going is because mel is modeling.finally got my pictures for my poster today.thanks to the help of the wonderful aaron.HAHAHA.owells trust me the pictures spells hilarious and i was actually quite scared that i'll end up chopping someone up by mistake or something.whatever forget that.im just happy that i am finally making some progression.slowly but surely.advertorial done,journalism down.poster and newsletter to go.dammit rina why arent you going tonight.your making me feel lazy now.anyway presentation went blah yesterday.i cant believe i actually stammered.name e one time in which i stammer?like hardly ever should i say it so dammit you could just picture my reaction though everyone said it went pretty alright i still think that it was definitely now my best performance.talk about what a let down.anyway happy body building xijie.gosh i so wonder how buff can you possibly ever go?speaking of which tomorrow is going to be such a long long long day considering that im going to be home late tonight.damn suddenly i wish i bought tickets for singfest.dammit.ok i feel bitchy today.betty saw me today.she ignored me.she did not say hi.she answered me monosyllabic and i did not do anything to her.dammit why the heck is she behaving such.movie this fri with jac.talk about EXCITING.woohoooo.

& so i found pictures from the past cell outing (: (: (:

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, August 05, 2007

9:45 AM

thanks jac for the pictures.yeapp the bomb diggidy babyy.woohoo! (: (: & pictures speak a thousand words

lovelove

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Saturday, August 04, 2007

8:48 AM

what word can i describe my yesterday?simply AWESOME.what in the world can possibly be better than alcohol + good music(baybeats (: (:)+ AWESOME company + ciggs + shisha.met up with jac yesterday.finally our much awaited harry's date.thanks for the lovely presents darling!i absolutely LOVE them.thank yooou!send me the pictures girl!and yes sorry i was late.heh.finally went for my first ever baybeats gig and i must say that that band king kong jane was really neat.the singer has a sexy ass voice.omg and i saw eunice ho!talk about AGES since i last saw her.owells off to aliwal street after that for shisha.AND i bumped into eng eng.talk about pleasant surprise.shisha was the bomb.this new joint is like super CHILL.though it was a pity that the roof was crowded hence we cant head up there.but still.i cant believe that mel and i ended up getting ciggs in the end even though we were shishaing but owells.it was fun though i ended up highly stoned.moving on to today.madame butterfly baby.talk about not being there for ages.ok the last time was about four months ago?right ok.my parents think i eat too much but still.somehow i feel that my drama teachers are so going to make great parents considering the things which they always tell me.heh.tennis this morning was the bomb earlier.it was laughter and more laughter.though i think my backhand was screwing up on me.owells.four projects due this coming week and i have yet to start on any of them.yes please tell me how screwed i am.jessica you so have to stop procrastinating!

shisha happy (:

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

7:35 AM

i swear my friend is starting to irritate me.stop asking me when as i can never give you a definite answer as yet.i think barbie dolls are the sex.but i need to buy one to massacre her for this thing which i am doing.anyone knows where to buy cheap barbie dolls?anyway people think im starting to become hostile to certain people.WRONG.im so not.today was a great day of bridge,lights and bitching.im sure hip hop will eventually know.but still.i still find it amusing on how some people want to look like they are all that and come and boast to me about people i know.juvenile.friday is going to be a fun day.or so i hope and my bitch's birthday is next week.talk about fun.not to mention krunk where we are just going to get omyfrigginggawdhell high.ok moving along.people tell me that temasek is a good poly.but why do i somehow not see that beauty in it?i think im getting complaisent.that's bad.

to see the world in a grain of sand

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;